I suck

At keeping a schedule that makes blogging consistent.

At work the other night I spent all my time singing, just singing.

A lot of the time I was good enough to get the song stuck in people's head.

It was great, there were at least 5 people with "Boys of Summer" by Don Henley, or the Ataris variously embedded in their head.

Also, I ended up singing a lot of Elton John, which bothers me, because up until now I never had the problem of liking Elton John.

At least not enough to sing it.

Sleep

I've never been very good at it.

That's why I think I like the closing shift at the store.

Everyone else hates it with a passion, a flaming passion of torrid hurry, with resigned candor.

it's a weird mix

and we all sit there and talk about stuff as we block

one girl got broken up with today

that sucks

I told her to drink it away, which on second pass is a bad idea

oh well

I had to give up my laptop today, and without it I feel empty,

but no worries
just repairs

Item 1

This is my Christmas tree, I leave it up all year round. This is in part due to the fact that it looks pretty damn cool.

Also, I like that it is a sort of blueish white, because then it can go with other holidays, and I can add ornaments to it to match the time of year.

My mom gave it to me, because I begged her for one like my math teacher Mrs. Curtis had.

This looks nothing like the tree Mrs. Curtis had, in fact, there is very little way it could look anything less like the tree Mrs. Curtis had, but I'm glad, it makes me unique.

Behind it you can see a jar of headache pills, they're like a little present to myself, every time my head feels like someone has addled it with a jackhammer.

Merry Christmas to me.

Working on my room

Hard to find a job

I was just talking to my grandmother, and she has been trying to find a new job for a long time.

She went to a restaurant and the amount of applicants that they have had is up, to almost five hundred applicants per ninety days.

and the restaurant wasn't hiring.

I really hope things get better, soon.

We really need it here in my town.

Failure to launch

I relied on my mother for money today,

and it drove me crazy.
I hated that I couldnt do for myself,
it was a low point of this month.

but why?

What causes this embarrassment that I am feeling?

There is no logical reason, everyone needs to be picked up and dusted off sometimes.

still sucks

School day

Today I went to the bookstore, and I was horrified at the price of an item

it was 136.91 including tax

but here is my problem...

this book was only purchased because I needed a code

an 18 digit code,

so now I own a two-thousand page quarto, of useless sodding pages.

What I suggest is instead of selling me this sodding exercise in prior knowledge, that passes for a textbook...

they could fire the printers, make the book digital and sell me just the disc that I needed in the first place as an "educational bundle pack" that could have much easier served to shove their 136.91 bill up my...

I would have paid that if I was going to use all the items I had been given, but in effect they were reaming me for something I didnt need at all.

in the words of the internet suxx0rs to the maxx

Sick

Headache

book club was dull

shouted some random nonsense about the Mormon Tabernacle Choir

they ate it up

sometimes I love the inane nature of my conversation

Love and Kisses

I had to call in

Because I was super sick,

I have strep, no fun, got these antibiotics to take

had this argument with my grandmother. she thinks my diet is why I got sick.

It is'nt.

I got sick because I touch people, and their stuff at work all day, and get exposed to a lot.

It sucks to be so vulnerable, we all rely on other people following unwritten rules of cleanliness and hygiene, and they do mostly, at least when other people are looking.

otherwise, not so much.

Too sick

To go to work today

I fell asleep at midnight, when I got home

and slept until 20 minutes ago

Symptoms, headache, stuffy head, fever, sore throat, coughing, and wheezing

it sucks

the big one

Shopping problem

I cannot help myself, whenever I walk into a store, I will buy something, whether I want or need to or not.

So now I have a shirt, from express

it's nice

First day back, after the suspension

Okay, so it wasn't that bad,
I just had to shut myself up... a lot.

But, I am still thinking about it and the reasons I am not happy are the same now, as they ever were.

My manager is hiring people outside our store, to work at levels higher than the people who work in the store. This makes sense from a management perspective. Vetting in people to do a job is a very sure way to get it done.

But it disenfranchises the people in the store who work hard to get to the next level, and are run out of the position because of a more qualified candidate.

Personally, I'd rather someone who works hard to learn a job, than someone who knows the job, being brought in to do it for more money.

It's really hard to move up I've noticed, and I really have to put on a face to be able to move up within the store.

I'll do it for now, but they've put me in a position where, if opportunity knocks, I'm gone.

Famous

When you're a little kid there is no doubt in your mind of your impending celebrity.

You will be a star.

That is not how it really works, and it dawned on me today.

I will be a cashier, and the world will be the world

the people who are stars, always were and will be

forever and ever

amen

Suspended

I got suspended the other day, although probably deserved

I called someone in the deli an idiot

and then said "We can't all be rocket scientists"

while this may be true, it was a bonehead move on my part.

shame on me